daniclarke

08:25 pm

Always be my baby..

Well damn.. sooo much has happened.. I don't even know where to start..here goes nothing..

* HUGE thunderstorm tonight.. perfect way to end my perfectly awesome day (hence the harshly used scarcasm there..) I hate drama.. I mean I know it's hard to avoid and I've been doing a pretty good job of it but it's the stupid stuff that always seems to get blown out of proportion that always gets me.. Keep your mouth shut people, yeah, stuff happens.. get the hell over it..don't make a big scene just to get attention.. that bothers me.. I use to be like that, I ALWAYS had to be the center of attention and I'm sure I drove people insane, I've learned from my mistakes and now I'm really laid back and it drives me crazy now when people just strive for attention and are loud and do everything possible to get people to notice them..I mean JUST SHUT UP.. pleaseeeee! (sorry that was my only rampage for the night..promise.. but I can speak from experience, at least I admnit I use to be obnoxious like that..) so yeah, this has probably made no sense to anyone reading it but..

* Gossip--> the next topic on my list, it got me pissed off today and I thought it would be an awesome thing to see what yall think about it, I personally in all up straight honesty think its complete bullshit.. girls talk, its our nature, but I don't understand why all the talking has to be hurtful, when people would say mean things behind my back my friends would be like, it's just out of jealousy.. well jealousy hurts like a bitch..I use to be such a gossiper.. oh lord, you couldn't tell me a damnnn thing.. and I'm sure that was just a huge mix of immaturity, but it was also acceptance I suppose.. if i knew the "dirt" about someone if you will.. it would get me attention, yet another attention grabber--> but then gossip stabbed me right in the back.. well deserved I know, but still a very painful experience and struggle in my life.. wow, sorry yall, i just realized this whole entire like journal thing is me realizing I really just use to be a pure bitch.. damn.. I am so sorry to anyone I have hurt along my way to realizing who I am as a person.. I wish I could say I know who I am, unfortunantly I'm not there yet, luckily I know I'm on my path.. but looking back I can honestly see how mean and bitchy I was.. please, I'm genuinly apologizing right now to anyone I have hurt.. please forgive me.. I'm so sorry.. I'm sure it was just, well.. jealousy..

* Now that I've grown up I can keep a secret.. BIG secrets even.. HOOT HOOT GO DANI! hah anyywayys.. someone told me a huge secret a couple days ago and it has taken everything in my power not to tell someone.. it's about cheating.. they aren't cheating but the person they are hooking up with is.. that could possibly the biggest kick in the ass out there.. I've been cheated on and from personal experience, please I'm begging you.. BREAK UP WITH ME FIRST, damnit! the only reasons I can think of for someone to possibly want to cheat on their boyfriend/ girlfriend would be A) they aren't a good hook up B) they are sick of them and need something new.. a new "spice" if you will C) going behind someones back and hooking up with someone else has some sort of scandolus adrenline rush to it.. that's it, I am all out of reasons.. yall have anymore please add them..

* Ohhhh yesss.. that reminds mee.. I have a best friend that is a boy.. I honestly love him just "as a friend" and I tell him I love him and he says it back.. but some girls are like you can't love him "as a friend" I personally think I can, because I do, I mean yes I find him attractive and wouldn't mind it at all if we dated but it doesn't bother me that we don't, because I just love having him there for me.. does that make any sense what so ever??..

anyways.. you can think this incrediably long boring entry to abigial.. i updated just for you sweets! i'm gonna try to start updating this thing more often, cause that just lifted so much stress of my shoulders.. alright yall..

much love..
<33 Dani

Current Mood: stress relieved.. almost

04:07 pm

You kiss my lips and then you take my breath away..

* Spring Break could possibly be in the running for the most confusing and enjoyable week of my life... The whole week consisted of unimaginable happiness and unforgettable sadness.. the person I thought hated me from the bottom of his heart confessed his love to me, my best friend lost the love of her life and realized that boys really are shady assholes who deserve to lick some hairy balls(raunchy image i know, but this one particular boy should have to endure the pain and suffering of it.. trust me.), my dearest mother decided it would be a fantastic idea to tell me I am one fat whore who shouldn't have friends.. I told her thank you..(now to all you people who know my mother yall know she is an absolutely amazing person.. to yall- I'm her daughter and I have taken her through hell and back and I probably deserve what she says to me.. so don't get me wrong- I love her, and she is an incredible person.. but I am just recapping my lovely week!), had the FREAKING time of my life with some awesome people!.. there was defiantly a lot more to my crazyyyyy week but I kinda forgot it(I'm sick you see, and I am almost positive when you are congested you loose some brain memory.. just a theory)

** Boys are amazingly dorky and can pull some surprising stunts.. but please someone, tell me how to freaking deal with them.. you have those awesome guys who are always there for you and would do ANYTHING for you but they always seem to be taken by gorgeous girls that you could never compare to, then there are those boys who are COMPLETE assholes who I always seem to end up falling for (yeah, I don't get it either..), then there are those ones who flirt with you but you don't know if they are serious cause they are goofy and kinda just flirt with everyone, oh- then there are the ones who are amazingly dorky and you could never see yourself with but have an awesome time hanging out with.. and then there are just the rest of them who I am too tired to describe but if you are a boy, you can comment and classify yourself if I haven't already taken the honor of doing so..oh yeah, and if you are a girl- you can comment and tell about your type of boy that I stupidly forgot to describe(so sorry..)

*** Really random thought, but I just realized I can not wait for summer.. those KICKASS days where you don't have a care in the world and you can do whatever you darn well please.. and then summerrrr lovee! ahh.. my favorite! hope I have some this year.. I need someone to love me..

**** alrighty yall.. my sickass self is getting tired again so I'm gonna go back to bed.. I hope everyone had an amazing Spring Break with some kick ass stories to tell..

much love <3
Dani

* Oh yes, please keep the Ramsey family and friends of the Ramsey's in your prayers..RIP Zach Ramsey.. God Bless..

Current Mood: sickkkkk

06:41 pm

I can't let go..

This is gonna be a long entry.. so bear with me please..

* I was talking to my ex boyfriend about him moving to NY .. he use to live there and whatever long story but anyway I kept asking him why he didn't want to stay in NC where he has friends and family and such and he said that he didn't have anything to stay for expcept part of his family and that was it and that wasnt enough to keep him here.. so it got me thinking.. if you could pick up and move would you.. my automatic answer would be yesss! of course, anything to get out of freaking Charlotte, North Carolina and away from my parents.. but then I was like wait, who would pay for my school, food, house, clothes? I wouldn't know anyone or even a cell phone for that matter because i wouldnt be able to pay for the freaking bill.. i'd have to get a job and work my ass off to afford rent and new clothes.. life would be hell without my parents there to support me and give me money.. My parents and i fight like there is no freaking tomorrow dont get me wrong..but i probably would really miss them if i did just leave( or miss there money that is- i know how wrong that sounds.. i know, i know).. and if you are reading this.. i wanna know.. would yall just get up and leave?

** On a completely different note- this has been a very unique week.. i have done some things regrettable, forgivable and some just flat out stupid..but the whole week has been quite enjoyable and i have loved every minute of it.. and everyone i have hung out with has been totally awesome..when dealing with some stupid shit ive gotten myself into i always seem to do some more stupid shit.. hah dont you love how that alwayssss happens?!

***ANYWAYS.. there is one particular person who is confusing me like crazyyyyy..you mister need to figure out what the heck is going on in that brain of yours, stop saying uncalled for things which you dont mean(and if you do mean you need to back up) and grrr.. just figure out what the hell you want and tell me straight up before you drive me insane!

****Alex and I saw some VERYY HOTT boys at the mall today.. gosh darn they were tasty! hahah! had a blast at your house Alex, you are freakingg awesome! lovee youu! i also saw a lot of CCDS people i hadn't seen in awhile..

alright well there was a heck of a lot more i was gonna type but im getting really ADD and im hungry (NOT a good combination!)

much love <3
Dani

Current Mood: hungry and ADD

05:16 pm

To say I love you is not enough..

* I never did understand what love was.. I simply thought it was this feeling that was completely overwhelming, indescribably embracing and you know the whole..can't eat, can't sleep, reach for the stars over the fence, world series kind of love thing.. but today I realized love never had to be that dramatic, you see I got this card in the mail today from this guy that I use to be head over heals for.. and of course I screwed up the whole entire relationship which isn't knew me at all, but anyways.. so I got this card and it was this cartoon about these two stick figures and how this one would be like you'd be my friend no matter what..and this one stick figure would say the stupidest things like, I'm on a top-secret mission and the other stick figure would respond, I'll just tag along, and then he would be like.. I'm an escaped convict and the other one would go.. Can i do it too?! with a huge smile on his face.. I mean the stupidest things I've ever heard and yet it brought the biggest smile to my face that i've probably had in awhile..but then again, i don't think it was the card i was smiling about.. its the mere fact that i have someone out there who would do anything for me and to know that lifts this monsterous stress off my shoulders.. to this boy.. you know who you are- i don't know what i would do without you, you have always been there and you are probably the most incredible person in the world.. i know we havent talked in a year and thats all my fault but just know- i cant wait to get to know you again, i mean ive seen you once in a year and a half and i think im falling in love with you again..

** On a different note.. I would like to dedicate my first entry to Alexandria Lee Massey.. thank you so much for always being there for me! you are an awesome friend and remember- laughing is kick ass, and when you are wasted- nothing is regrettable!! hah i love you sweetie!

...more to come once i figure out how to use this thing.. until then..

Smile often, laugh always & never stop loving..

<3 Dani

Current Mood: springggg breakkk!